Modern life expectancy, elderly suffering, and nursing homes
Tags: life expectancy, nursing home, assisted living, health, medicine
I kill myself or not, when I’m 80 years old? We spend all of our lives working hard, and it all leads to a glorious retirement spent swallowing pills and having medical procedures performed in order to squeeze out every minute we have left. I’m a cigarette smoker, and have heard many other smokers say they don’t want to live to be 80 in regard to the years cigarettes shave off of life. That may not be such a bad idea, because as humans we weren’t really meant to live as long as the current life expectancy, with much thanks to modern medicine and technology. Humans were made and meant to mature to adulthood, breed and produce offspring, teach those offspring survival skills, and pass away between 25-35 years old. This is the basic function of life that many other animals display, without the support of modern medicine to interfere with the cycle of life. So what is wrong with living to a ripe old age? My problem is the quality of life our Senior Citizens experience, especially when subjected to assisted living facilities and nursing homes.
Another panic attack at the office during work
Tags: panic attack, hypochondriac, workplace, office
Work at the office was highly stressful on Friday, with numerous meetings during the morning in which most of the parties involved were not happy. I spent most of the morning justifying a sensitive position to upper management, and strategically expressing my discontent for decisions that were made for me. After lunch, I was walking in from having a cigarette and felt dizzy in the hallway. Thinking it was only a rare buzz from the nicotine, I returned to my desk which is located in an open environment surrounded by other employees. As I sat down, I feel that familiar out-of-body sensation and difficulty breathing.
I’m fairly experienced with a panic attack in the workplace, previously having several during office meetings. Being a hypochondriac as well, one of the first things I do during an attack is put my two fingers to my neck and feel my pulse. [...more]
Is Screeb alive, and who is this Obama guy?
Tags: Barack Obama, Hillary Clinton, Election 2008
Thank you to everyone who has sent me messages asking if I was alright, since it has been a while since the last post. To that guy who thought I killed myself, not a chance. The reason for the leave of absence was a severe low, or rather a depressed mental state. I had no motivation to write or blog about anything, and I became even more of a recluse. Many people have told me to have a successful blog, you have to blog every day or even a couple times a day. I really don’t care, and I’m not looking for a successful blog. The reason I write is to get thoughts out of my head and onto paper, as part of my own self-therapy. To those people who write me with their bipolar horror stories, my heart goes out to you. I am far from an expert and don’t always know how I can help, but I will try to answer when I can. For the most part, I am a somewhat unstable person trying to make it through the world myself. The good news is more posts are coming, for I’m out of the depression. It might only be a couple a week, but if you’re a fan of the site, I doubt you’ll mind. [...more]
Thrown from roof of moving minivan, and runs naked along bypass
Tags: drug abuse, mental illness, car accidentThis story unfolds this week in Reading, PA and is one of the most unbelievable and ridiculous stories I have ever heard. To summarize, a man was driving route 422 in Reading doing 55 mph. He proceeded to climb out his window onto the roof of his minivan, where I assume he was “surfing”. The van lost control and he was thrown over an embankment, which motorists witnessed and assumed he was dead. Suddenly, the man appeared with a huge gash in his side that exposed his organs. He proceeded to take off his clothes, and run naked down the side of route 422. Police arrived, and couldn’t subdue him with 3 taser hits and pepper spray. Instead, the police had to tackle him to control him and get him to the hospital, where he is now in critical condition. Similar to beer muscles, this man had “drug muscles” which can be even scarier. [...more]
Hallucinations, a reaction to medication or my mind?
Tags: hallucination, mental illness, medicationAm I hallucinating from the bipolar medication I am on, or am I just hallucinating? This is the question I asked myself as I observed the soda drop from the machine. In a typical office morning ritual, I was getting my caffeine buzz to wake up from the effects of the Seroquel that knocks me out at night. As I pushed the button, it was a slow motion flash that went through my mind. The soda can appeared almost surreal, and my thought were of the 1700’s and 1800’s. Would people of that era be amazed at a feat like this? Simply inserting a piece of paper into a mechanism, which results in a good being produced. Think of what people of that time had to do to get a simple good? Most products were made at home, with far more exertion and effort on part of the consumer. I bet in their wildest dreams, they would have never thought this possible. Let alone operating a machine to download “Amateur Anal Attempts 8″, in order to fulfill a sick and twisted fantasy in the midnight hours. It was a trance that I was thrown into, and all of these thoughts ran though my head in the matter of seconds. As I walked away from the soda machine, I thought of how odd the experience was. [...more]
